I just realised that there were two paths. And I had chosen the one less interesting. 29/4/13

And I repeated the wretched path. With no willpower left, what will become of me?

The plan is:

Maximise time usage between periods to study german. Focus on grammar in sch.
On the MRT, study vocab using the app.
At home, study vocab for 1 h, consolidate words for 15/30 min. Do the essays.
Must work on TOK/EE and all other subjects. Priority is TOK.
Then, study vocab before going to sleep.

Inaction could be the worst action. When a cyclist rings his bell behind, keep moving while looking back, don't stop and turn back, you might get hit. When a cyclist is going towards you, stick to a side quickly, don't stand in the middle and wait, you are more likely to get hit.

And, dear IR, please be more careful with your choice of words, tone, and self-portrayal. You don't want to be seen as judgemental, do you? Or do you really care if you are seen as a judgemental person? If you feel like you speak the truth? Just who are you? What gives you the sense of who you are?

I have regrets. I should have been more forward looking and more concerned about the practical benefits. But it seems like I was happy.

Von Morgen muss ich jedentag Deutsch lernen.

1. Ich habe 1000 Wörte zu lernen.
2. Ich muss in der Schule Deutsch-Grammatik lernen.
3. Zu Hause lerne verbesse mein Wortschatz.
4. Ich werde siegen.

One entry per day please

Cut fat, cut waste, cut slack, cut stupidity, cut it

I'm no saint, but I felt like I know she needed help. She was probably desperate, she may be lying, but if I could have shown her kindness, all will be worthwhile for both of us. To reject any notion that she is in need is truly pathetic, it is disgusting. We are privileged and will never be able to understand her life, her struggle, her yearning for respect and a place in society. To be skeptical is perfectly alright, as long as there is an attempt to a productive action. It's just sick, arrogant and detestable that you show no sympathy at all. Look into their eye's for heaven's sake.

And then you believe nonsense, failing to realise the fallacies of non-explanation, and seemingly convinced. It just annoys the hell out of me that someone your age can't even have the most basic sense of critical thinking. Do you ever think about the meaning of life, the universe and other questions? I fear to inherit indifference.

Today is a bad day. I am annoyed and tired.

But, there are just a few more weeks left. Be steadfast and ready. Finish the book, finish the vocab, organise content for question spotting. You can do it. Wir werden siegen. Do not be lost. You are a failure but accept it. You can achieve your dreams. Get into a dense mood, think. Be ready. Time is running out. Triumph.

Wenn ich ihre Name sehe, fühle ich mich zufrieden.

好想跟你说话！

It worries me that my friend thinks I'm judgemental, at least he was honest

How can an army want war when each soldier wants peace?

哦。。。我在旷野漂流。。。漂流的尽头
超喜欢这首歌^^

Problems with Procrastination

Exactly, that's what I am doing now. You seem to be doing that too. I waste time. Lots of it.

What did I want to write about?

I wanted to write about my life.

改变自己，从不摸耳朵开始。

45

45, an important number at this stage of my life.

Honestly, I don't like the number 45, 43 seems way cooler, and 44 has that sense of animosity that makes it rather mysterious.

But, I shall spur on. Not for the sake of achieving any number. I will do my best to prove to myself that I have the motivation and drive to excel, that my name suits me. :) Mit ihr rede war schön.

改变

心正，人正。

从今天开始，我将改变自己。

把精力用在现实中。

不知为何很多人感到悲伤，

我只想找到属于自己的动力。

有些事情早已过去，有些只是幻想。
请你对生活认真点。

有些习惯看来还是很还改的。